Another venting out experience with Sincere

I've been here before
This ain't nothing new
I barely had the time to lace up my shoes
I'm stepping on up
Don't mind the bruise
The bruise on my face just shows my pain is true
How many times do I have to prove
That shooting me down
Only means you're screwed
You've crossed the line
Doing those things you do
You'll probably cry or hope to die
When I'm through
When I'm through
No one will notice you

False claims of hope
That's what I stand accused
Everything has a reason
I thought you knew
Don't burn this bridge
Even if you are through
I mean more than you can imagine
But you still insist on acting brand new
Don't toss me aside
You'll or hope to die
When I am through
I'm coming for you

Read between the lines
I know most won't do
You probably won't realize I'm talking about you
You'll think I'm venting out about about a failed relationship
Now you'll smile coz you can believe you're reading this
Open you're eyes
Don't be surprised you fool
Life ain't all about your life
Don't be so stuck on you
What would you do if you knew that I was coming for you?
What would you do?
What would you do?

It's like my life is on instant replay
They think I'm deaf
But I hear very clear
What he say and she say
You better watch were your birds lay
Or they'll do a switch-a-roo
Then when your eggs hatch you'll find snakes
Don't say I ain't tell you so
They'll take your name then your fame
And relieve your purse of all your dough
Yo
Most chicks are straight up bitches.True
They go out of their way just to hurt you
Wait
Dudes don't dare applaud
Coz when I say bitch
I also refer to y'all
Take every word I say to the bank
Sincerely yours
I'm out
Thanks

Worlds End

Dear you,


By the time you finish reading this...
I will have made you...
Possibly Laugh...
Possibly Frown...
Possibly Cry...
But I guarantee that I will have made the worthless thing you call a spine tremble like jello on an old table...
I have been on this miserable planet for 27 years...
and when you take into account that it has been 27 fighting years...
That's a pretty fuckin long time...
*glass shatters*
1
2
3
4
5
6...
that's how many times I've seen death stare me in the face...
1
2
that's how many times I've been close to not staring death back in the face and laughing...
yeah with shame I say "you almost had me"
Forgive yourself that's just the warrior in me talking...
I dare not apologize to the likes of you...
Instead I place the blame on you for not understanding...
My plight is one of a simple nature
I have spat out my own blood for the last time...
I have have cried my last tear...
I have had my last stitch...
I will never again wake up in a hospital bed with the agonizing sound of the life support equipment...
Never will I smile at your words just to fall in accordance to society when i really want to rip your fuckin head off and punt it into a 15 ton pile of goat shit...
*referee shouts* "it's good"
Never ever will I deny you of the truth...
yes that dress does make you look like a whore...
yes guys can be bitches...
yes I do think you suck moose penis for believing that just because I was not born in Africa gives you the right to say "you're not African you're just a Black American.I'm more African than you"
Yeah that really rattles my cage...
Here I am thinking for all these years that I am African before anything else.Even with the atrocity known as the African Diaspora...
Here's me thinking I'm still a proud African...
Silly me...
Just in case you're as ignorant as your view...
I was being sarcastic...
Never will I tolerate our youth killing each other off just because they think they're gangsters in the making...
Never...
You know what...
I got a funny story...
One day...
Well it's actually not a story...
It's a question...
When hell arrives on Earth and the Devil runs rampant amongst us and consumes the soul of man...
Until he comes across a man that stares him in the face and laughs...
What do you do?
What do you do?
What...
Do...
You...
Do?
...
...
...
I remember hearing "the devils greatest trick was convincing the world that he doesn't exist"
Well I know he exists...
I saw him...
I did not fear him like most...
I looked him in his flame engulfed eyes as he roared...
I looked at him and laughed and said...
"This is wear you get off"
His roar suddenly came to a halt...
That tends to happen when you have a little 5'10 man names Sincere slit your throat from ear to ear...
Awww poor wittle devil is all speechless now?
(that was my cuddly wuddly voice)
You chose the wrong person to fuck with...
You've consumed so many people close to me...
Friends
Enemies(ex-friends)
But you knew better not to mess with my family...
But you still got a raw deal in the end...
Ya know I never understood why people feared you so much...
is what I say as the devil thrashes around on the ground with his head hanging off of his next...
QUESTION!!!
What do you do when you're face to face with ME?!?!?
The one who killed that which you FEAR?!?!?!?

SINCERE

Beware of what you do to me...
Beware of what you say to me...

The Man without fear...has nothing to lose...
The Man who gazes upon the Devils eyes and smiles...knows no terror...
The Man who...
LETS END it there...
Try me...


LOL

This is the final goodbye

Dear (you know who you are),

I guess this really is goodbye...
I guess you made your choice...
But still I wonder why...
It's far easier to trust me than to doubt me...
But I guess your intent on going on without me...
It ain't a nice place where you're deciding to go...
Will I try to stop you?
I want to...
But I wont...
I've come to realise that I can't save you from yourself...
In all actuality
Attempting to do so would be bad for my health...
I used to think that it'd be nice to have you on the journey that I'm bound to take
but then I realized you really don't have what it takes
it's not your fault...
you're just not built for the life I wish to lead...
you'll still have me in your life...
but sadly it will only be when you see me on t.v or hear me on the radio or read about me in the newspaper and magazines...
You had an open invitation...
but you decided to chance it and leave me waiting
I guess I'm really not that patient
not patient enough to stand by and be denied
So this will be my final goodbye...


Goodbye,

Would have been Sincerely yours...

Nevermore

Sincere....

Untitled

sometimes at night
as i lay in my bed
i stare at the ceiling
and i think about you
i wonder what you're doing
i wonder what you're wearing
i then close my eyes
and i imagine
your smile
your laugh
your smell
i even imagine the way you bite your bottom lip
when you're deep in thought
as i lay in bed
thinking of you this night
i reflect on on the way your soft lips
touch mine as i sleep
your own special way of saying
We Will Be Alright
" betam nafkshgn " -kin ቅን " i miss you so much " -sincere

Farewell My Valentine

This is a little something i just had in my head.


I Love you I Hate you I Love you I Hate you

I

I

I can't escape you

I wish that I could wake you

Rehabilitate you

Show you that you should be treated special

Not clowned by that dude

When your heart breaks

Don't worry ma i'll catch you

I watch you break my heart for another

But it's ok

I aint hurt ma

See I can act too

Was there all the time

That you needed me

But you you you

walked over me repeatedly

Now you got a dose of your own drug

Now you calling for me

Sayin baby don't leave,

what ever happened to we?

Inside i'm laughing you see

Coz your new found pain

brings a smile to me

How evil of me

You're now in need of me

You're suffering from a broken heart,

and you're calling for me

I got one or two options just admiring me

Now I got you too

How greedy of me

I've been down this road before

How foolish of me

I got 3 choices you see

But the devil

Is rejoicing you see

With every tear that you drop

is hell for you but it's heaven for me

Lord forgive me

For this vengence I seek

But ma it all comes back

Feel better please

but...

I gotta leave

Last dance with Her...

I held on to you...
I must be sick...
They say Love is blind...
But I think it's a biiiitch...
Taking over my mind...
What is thiiiiis...
It built up for so long...
Who would have known it'd come to thiiiis...
i told you my feelings were Sincere...
You brushed it off...
I guess you aint want to hear...
Truth be told I felt that way for years...
You should never doubt me...
You know who I is...
I'm Sincere...
Shit i'm pissed...
That all it takes is your smile...
To bring me back where this poem begins...
I held on to you...
I must be siiiick...
A took a chance at love...
Now my question is...
Will it make you sad to know that for you my heart no longer lives???
It won't hurt so bad...
Take it from me...
I felt that shiiiit...
I'll smile for you at your wedding...
One second...
Can you take a picture of me standing with my beautiful chiiiick...

The shock*

The Phone rings
to my surprise its her
I'm like "damn ma I can't beleive you called"
She said" Sin where you been?I thought you'd never forget about me"
I said "oh oh no how could I forget you
Miss Honey Brown
Who held me down"
I felt her smile as she said "oh boy I miss ya"
I said "I miss you too.so much so I was hoping you'd call"
She said "why didn't you pick up the phone.that way you wouldn't have had to hope at all.I'd have been by your side.Would have been your boo would have been your lady..."
I said "wait one second boo these people on the other end they calling me and driving me crazy i'll be right back i promise I won't be long baby"
...
...
...
I said "aight baby i'm back so sorry for keeping you waiting.So please please continue with what you were saying"
She said "why didn't you pick up the phone.that way you wouldn't have had to hope at all.I'd have been by your side.Would have been your boo would have been your lady..."
I took a deep sigh
*sigh*
I said"I'm sorry boo let me take this call then its all about you.These people keep calling and I swear with them i'm just about to reach the end of my short fuse"
...
...
...
I said "Baby i'm back"
She said"should I call back later"
I said " no no no they can all wait because you're far greater.what were you saying?"
She said "why didn't you pick up the phone.that way you wouldn't have had to hope at all.I'd have been by your side.Would have been your boo would have been your lady..."
She paused...
...
...
I said "baby are you there?"
She said "yes and i'm stressed.in fact i'm really scared"
I said "scared?"
She said "yeah"
I'm like "baby this is me you can tell me anything"
She "she said i know but this aint just anything"
I said "listen take a deep breath and pretend that i'm your man and your my lady"
She said "ok i'll try but I swear this shit is driving me crazy"
She took a deep breath and for a while aint say a word
...
...
...
I'm like"damn...no matter what ma we gonna always be friends.I know we dated some time ago and fooled around but we're still friends"
She said "wait don't talk let me just say what's on my mind.I've been stressing on how to tell you this for a long time.And I nearly lost my mind.This thing is driving me crazy.I can't believe this happened but Sincere I'm having your baby"
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*I am a writer.This is just something I put togther.So none of those wild messages asking if i'm gonna be a father.For the extra slow people.I aint nobodies daddy.

Sincerest Thought of the day: Friendship

It seems like lately people forget the true value of friendship along with the main pillar of friendship which is Honesty.It's like when we have good friends we get used to them and start not appreciating them for whatever reason.We tend to treat the bad friends better than the good ones.Can I even say "bad friends"?Lets just say we tend to treat our good friends in a way that doesnt reflect how good they are towards us.Which brings me to the main pillar of friendship,HONESTY.The plain and simple truth is that HONESTY is the key.Even if it hurts.HONESTY is painful but far less painful than a lie.Especially a lie in friendship which I believe is the most un-neccessary lie of all.Because as friends we should accept each other for who we are.We should be able to keep it real no matter the situation.Remember this...one lie leads to another lie which leads to another.Eventually you will slip up and expose yourself.When all it took was a simple gesture of HONESTY to avoid the hurt that you've inflicted on someone you said is a friend.Ask yourself now "did he/she deserve it?" also ask yourself "am I happy with the way I made that friend feel?" If you can answer "yes" to those two questions...You're truly a cold person.In closing I say...Friends stick by each other...even when they are not wanted or told to back off.Friends don't let friends suffer alone.

P.S, Something I apply to relationships "If you fall...I'll pick you up...if I can't pick you up...I'll lay down beside you" I apply that to my friendships too.(anyone close to me can vouch for me on this)

Peace,

Sincere

Hope: Forever we will be...

Why does this keep
Happening to me
seems like everytime I
fall for someone
they feel it's not meant to be
for whatever reason
they see
something inside me
that I just don't see
I was prepared to go that
whole distance
and then they would see
I could love them
and trust them
and make them happy
If only they
Knew the
real side of me
maybe they'd see
maybe they'd see
maybe they'd see
I could love them
I could make them happy
I aint pissed off
or sad
There's no hate in me
I accept that the "one" just is not me
The "one" just aint me
But i'll be happy
If friends we'll always be
Just you and me
But not you and me
Best of Friends you and me
You and me
Hope we will be

Someone tell me
Why does this
always happen to me
always happen to me

Feels like "love" just
hates me
"Love" just hates me

That's how it seems
That's how it seems
Hope we will be
Forever friends you and me
Smile for me please
Smile for me please
That keeps me going
Keeps me going..

*Inspired By Hope & rhythmically by Kanye West "street lights"

Hope: Either way

Today I thought about how you brought back my smile
I thought about how you were when we first met
and how you are now
You never changed and i'm kinda like "wow"
Sometimes I look at you
and wonder what you're thinking
Sometimes I even wonder if i'm dreaming
Friends for so long
and suddenly we crossed in a more private way
I wrote this so that you know that
If we stay the same as day one
or if we take that chance that we're both afraid or confused about...
Either way i'll still be the same
It will always be ok
Either way...


Have I ever lied to you?