tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-67425341816689923252024-03-05T15:37:26.544+00:00My Life...My Words...My JourneySincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.comBlogger39125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-64944187117812449992009-04-01T19:42:00.001+01:002009-04-01T19:42:47.140+01:00Question for all my friends: It isn't over people...Ok the celebrations are over.And yes we are all proud that we didn't get fucked over in the elections this time around.But my question is why were we all(myself included) all hyped up during election time about the importance of it...now we have grown silent?<br /><br />This movement doesn't stop Mr. President Barack Obama still needs our support...<br /><br />(Let's get busy please)<br /><br />Love yall.Change doesn't just happen once it's continuous.<br /><br />This is part of an email I recieved from the campaign:<br />In just 24 hours, Congress will begin voting on President Obama's budget. It's a big test not only for President Obama, but for our entire movement. Taking just a few minutes to call Congress now could make a major impact on this crucial vote.<br /><br />Will you call your elected representatives to let them know you support a budget that tackles the long-term challenges to our prosperity?<br /><br />Use our simple tool to look up your elected representatives and tell them where you stand right away.<br /><br />Call your representatives<br /><br />With this vote, we have a historic opportunity to create jobs, restore our economy, and invest in energy, health care, and education for our future.<br /><br />Don't let this important moment slip away. Pick up the phone for President Obama today:<br /><br /><a href="http://my.barackobama.com/callcongress" onmousedown="'UntrustedLink.bootstrap($(this)," target="_blank" rel="nofollow"><span>http://my.barackobama.com/</span><wbr><span class="word_break"></span>callcongress</a><br /><br />Thank you,<br /><br />Mitch<br /><br />Mitch Stewart<br />Director<br />Organizing for AmericaSincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-79596598587405714242009-03-25T17:04:00.001+00:002009-03-25T17:06:42.983+00:00Another venting out experience with SincereI've been here before<br />This ain't nothing new<br />I barely had the time to lace up my shoes<br />I'm stepping on up<br />Don't mind the bruise<br />The bruise on my face just shows my pain is true<br />How many times do I have to prove<br />That shooting me down<br />Only means you're screwed<br />You've crossed the line<br />Doing those things you do<br />You'll probably cry or hope to die<br />When I'm through<br />When I'm through<br />No one will notice you<br /><br />False claims of hope<br />That's what I stand accused<br />Everything has a reason<br />I thought you knew<br />Don't burn this bridge<br />Even if you are through<br />I mean more than you can imagine<br />But you still insist on acting brand new<br />Don't toss me aside<br />You'll or hope to die<br />When I am through<br />I'm coming for you<br /><br />Read between the lines<br />I know most won't do<br />You probably won't realize I'm talking about you<br />You'll think I'm venting out about about a failed relationship<br />Now you'll smile <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">coz</span> you can believe you're reading this<br />Open you're eyes<br />Don't be surprised you fool<br />Life ain't all about your life<br />Don't be so stuck on you<br />What would you do if you knew that I was coming for you?<br />What would you do?<br />What would you do?<br /><br />It's like my life is on instant replay<br />They think I'm deaf<br />But I hear very clear<br />What he say and she say<br />You better watch were your birds lay<br />Or they'll do a switch-a-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">roo</span><br />Then when your eggs hatch you'll find snakes<br />Don't say I ain't tell you so<br />They'll take your name then your fame<br />And relieve your purse of all your dough<br />Yo<br />Most chicks are straight up bitches.True<br />They go out of their way just to hurt you<br />Wait<br />Dudes don't dare applaud<br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Coz</span> when I say bitch<br />I also refer to y'all<br />Take every word I say to the bank<br />Sincerely yours<br />I'm out<br />ThanksSincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-82328156892700352152009-03-16T20:05:00.000+00:002009-03-16T20:07:07.981+00:00Worlds EndDear you,<br /><br /><br />By the time you finish reading this...<br />I will have made you...<br />Possibly Laugh...<br />Possibly Frown...<br />Possibly Cry...<br />But I guarantee that I will have made the worthless thing you call a spine tremble like jello on an old table...<br />I have been on this miserable planet for 27 years...<br />and when you take into account that it has been 27 fighting years...<br />That's a pretty fuckin long time...<br />*glass shatters*<br />1<br />2<br />3<br />4<br />5<br />6...<br />that's how many times I've seen death stare me in the face...<br />1<br />2<br />that's how many times I've been close to not staring death back in the face and laughing...<br />yeah with shame I say "you almost had me"<br />Forgive yourself that's just the warrior in me talking...<br />I dare not apologize to the likes of you...<br />Instead I place the blame on you for not understanding...<br />My plight is one of a simple nature<br />I have spat out my own blood for the last time...<br />I have have cried my last tear...<br />I have had my last stitch...<br />I will never again wake up in a hospital bed with the agonizing sound of the life support equipment...<br />Never will I smile at your words just to fall in accordance to society when i really want to rip your fuckin head off and punt it into a 15 ton pile of goat shit...<br />*referee shouts* "it's good"<br />Never ever will I deny you of the truth...<br />yes that dress does make you look like a whore...<br />yes guys can be bitches...<br />yes I do think you suck moose penis for believing that just because I was not born in Africa gives you the right to say "you're not African you're just a Black American.I'm more African than you"<br />Yeah that really rattles my cage...<br />Here I am thinking for all these years that I am African before anything else.Even with the atrocity known as the African Diaspora...<br />Here's me thinking I'm still a proud African...<br />Silly me...<br />Just in case you're as ignorant as your view...<br />I was being sarcastic...<br />Never will I tolerate our youth killing each other off just because they think they're gangsters in the making...<br />Never...<br />You know what...<br />I got a funny story...<br />One day...<br />Well it's actually not a story...<br />It's a question...<br />When hell arrives on Earth and the Devil runs rampant amongst us and consumes the soul of man...<br />Until he comes across a man that stares him in the face and laughs...<br />What do you do?<br />What do you do?<br />What...<br />Do...<br />You...<br />Do?<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />I remember hearing "the devils greatest trick was convincing the world that he doesn't exist"<br />Well I know he exists...<br />I saw him...<br />I did not fear him like most...<br />I looked him in his flame engulfed eyes as he roared...<br />I looked at him and laughed and said...<br />"This is wear you get off"<br />His roar suddenly came to a halt...<br />That tends to happen when you have a little 5'10 man names Sincere slit your throat from ear to ear...<br />Awww poor wittle devil is all speechless now?<br />(that was my cuddly wuddly voice)<br />You chose the wrong person to fuck with...<br />You've consumed so many people close to me...<br />Friends<br />Enemies(ex-friends)<br />But you knew better not to mess with my family...<br />But you still got a raw deal in the end...<br />Ya know I never understood why people feared you so much...<br />is what I say as the devil thrashes around on the ground with his head hanging off of his next...<br />QUESTION!!!<br />What do you do when you're face to face with ME?!?!?<br />The one who killed that which you FEAR?!?!?!?<br /><br />SINCERE<br /><br />Beware of what you do to me...<br />Beware of what you say to me...<br /><br />The Man without fear...has nothing to lose...<br />The Man who gazes upon the Devils eyes and smiles...knows no terror...<br />The Man who...<br />LETS END it there...<br />Try me...<br /><br /><br />LOLSincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-8467959603144832042009-03-08T21:51:00.003+00:002009-03-08T22:05:43.468+00:00This is the final goodbyeDear (you know who you are),<br /><br />I guess this really is goodbye...<br />I guess you made your choice...<br />But still I wonder why...<br />It's far easier to trust me than to doubt me...<br />But I guess your intent on going on without me...<br />It <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">ain't</span> a nice place where you're deciding to go...<br />Will I try to stop you?<br />I want to...<br />But I wont...<br />I've come to realise that I can't save you from yourself...<br />In all <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">actuality</span><br />Attempting to do so would be bad for my health...<br />I used to think that it'd be nice to have you on the journey that <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">I'm</span> bound to take<br />but then I realized you really don't have what it takes<br />it's not your fault...<br />you're just not built for the life I wish to lead...<br />you'll still have me in your life...<br />but sadly it will only be when you see me on t.v or hear me on the radio or read about me in the newspaper and magazines...<br />You had an open invitation...<br />but you decided to chance it and leave me waiting<br />I guess <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">I'm</span> really not that patient<br />not patient enough to stand by and be denied<br />So this will be my final goodbye...<br /><br /><br />Goodbye,<br /><br />Would have been Sincerely yours...<br /><br />Nevermore<br /><br />Sincere....Sincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-19165625564353165062009-02-17T10:27:00.001+00:002009-02-17T10:35:28.223+00:00Untitledsometimes at night<br />as i lay in my bed<br />i stare at the ceiling<br />and i think about you<br />i wonder what you're doing<br />i wonder what you're wearing<br />i then close my eyes<br />and i imagine<br />your smile<br />your laugh<br />your smell<br />i even imagine the way you bite your bottom lip<br />when you're deep in thought<br />as i lay in bed<br />thinking of you this night<br />i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">reflect on</span> on the way your soft lips<br />touch mine as i sleep<br />your own special way of saying<br />We Will Be Alright<br />"<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1"> betam</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">nafkshgn</span> " -kin ቅን " i miss you so much " -sincereSincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-10409696703083379832009-02-14T12:26:00.000+00:002009-02-14T12:27:12.300+00:00Farewell My ValentineThis is a little something i just had in my head.<br /><br /><br />I Love you I Hate you I Love you I Hate you<br /><br />I<br /><br />I<br /><br />I can't escape you<br /><br />I wish that I could wake you<br /><br />Rehabilitate you<br /><br />Show you that you should be treated special<br /><br />Not clowned by that dude<br /><br />When your heart breaks<br /><br />Don't worry ma i'll catch you<br /><br />I watch you break my heart for another<br /><br />But it's ok<br /><br />I aint hurt ma<br /><br />See I can act too<br /><br />Was there all the time<br /><br />That you needed me<br /><br />But you you you<br /><br />walked over me repeatedly<br /><br />Now you got a dose of your own drug<br /><br />Now you calling for me<br /><br />Sayin baby don't leave,<br /><br />what ever happened to we?<br /><br />Inside i'm laughing you see<br /><br />Coz your new found pain<br /><br />brings a smile to me<br /><br />How evil of me<br /><br />You're now in need of me<br /><br />You're suffering from a broken heart,<br /><br />and you're calling for me<br /><br />I got one or two options just admiring me<br /><br />Now I got you too<br /><br />How greedy of me<br /><br />I've been down this road before<br /><br />How foolish of me<br /><br />I got 3 choices you see<br /><br />But the devil<br /><br />Is rejoicing you see<br /><br />With every tear that you drop<br /><br />is hell for you but it's heaven for me<br /><br />Lord forgive me<br /><br />For this vengence I seek<br /><br />But ma it all comes back<br /><br />Feel better please<br /><br />but...<br /><br />I gotta leaveSincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-62631927430274375772009-02-08T12:24:00.000+00:002009-02-08T12:25:35.528+00:00Last dance with Her...I held on to you...<br />I must be sick...<br />They say Love is blind...<br />But I think it's a biiiitch...<br />Taking over my mind...<br />What is thiiiiis...<br />It built up for so long...<br />Who would have known it'd come to thiiiis...<br />i told you my feelings were Sincere...<br />You brushed it off...<br />I guess you aint want to hear...<br />Truth be told I felt that way for years...<br />You should never doubt me...<br />You know who I is...<br />I'm Sincere...<br />Shit i'm pissed...<br />That all it takes is your smile...<br />To bring me back where this poem begins...<br />I held on to you...<br />I must be siiiick...<br />A took a chance at love...<br />Now my question is...<br />Will it make you sad to know that for you my heart no longer lives???<br />It won't hurt so bad...<br />Take it from me...<br />I felt that shiiiit...<br />I'll smile for you at your wedding...<br />One second...<br />Can you take a picture of me standing with my beautiful chiiiick...Sincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-19242851051711579962009-02-03T22:56:00.001+00:002009-02-03T22:56:38.186+00:00The shock*The Phone rings<br />to my surprise its her<br />I'm like "damn ma I can't beleive you called"<br />She said" Sin where you been?I thought you'd never forget about me"<br />I said "oh oh no how could I forget you<br />Miss Honey Brown<br />Who held me down"<br />I felt her smile as she said "oh boy I miss ya"<br />I said "I miss you too.so much so I was hoping you'd call"<br />She said "why didn't you pick up the phone.that way you wouldn't have had to hope at all.I'd have been by your side.Would have been your boo would have been your lady..."<br />I said "wait one second boo these people on the other end they calling me and driving me crazy i'll be right back i promise I won't be long baby"<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />I said "aight baby i'm back so sorry for keeping you waiting.So please please continue with what you were saying"<br />She said "why didn't you pick up the phone.that way you wouldn't have had to hope at all.I'd have been by your side.Would have been your boo would have been your lady..."<br />I took a deep sigh<br />*sigh*<br />I said"I'm sorry boo let me take this call then its all about you.These people keep calling and I swear with them i'm just about to reach the end of my short fuse"<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />I said "Baby i'm back"<br />She said"should I call back later"<br />I said " no no no they can all wait because you're far greater.what were you saying?"<br />She said "why didn't you pick up the phone.that way you wouldn't have had to hope at all.I'd have been by your side.Would have been your boo would have been your lady..."<br />She paused...<br />...<br />...<br />I said "baby are you there?"<br />She said "yes and i'm stressed.in fact i'm really scared"<br />I said "scared?"<br />She said "yeah"<br />I'm like "baby this is me you can tell me anything"<br />She "she said i know but this aint just anything"<br />I said "listen take a deep breath and pretend that i'm your man and your my lady"<br />She said "ok i'll try but I swear this shit is driving me crazy"<br />She took a deep breath and for a while aint say a word<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />I'm like"damn...no matter what ma we gonna always be friends.I know we dated some time ago and fooled around but we're still friends"<br />She said "wait don't talk let me just say what's on my mind.I've been stressing on how to tell you this for a long time.And I nearly lost my mind.This thing is driving me crazy.I can't believe this happened but Sincere I'm having your baby"<br />...<br />...<br />...<br /><br /><br />*I am a writer.This is just something I put togther.So none of those wild messages asking if i'm gonna be a father.For the extra slow people.I aint nobodies daddy.Sincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-31222319209323971582009-02-03T08:35:00.001+00:002009-02-03T08:39:06.177+00:00Sincerest Thought of the day: FriendshipIt seems like lately people forget the true value of friendship along with the main pillar of friendship which is Honesty.It's like when we have good friends we get used to them and start not appreciating them for whatever reason.We tend to treat the bad friends better than the good ones.Can I even say "bad friends"?Lets just say we tend to treat our good friends in a way that <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">doesnt</span> reflect how good they are towards us.Which brings me to the main pillar of friendship,HONESTY.The plain and simple truth is that HONESTY is the key.Even if it hurts.HONESTY is painful but far less painful than a lie.Especially a lie in friendship which I believe is the most <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">un</span>-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">neccessary</span> lie of all.Because as friends we should accept each other for who we are.We should be able to keep it real no matter the situation.Remember this...one lie leads to another lie which leads to another.Eventually you will slip up and expose yourself.When all it took was a simple gesture of HONESTY to avoid the hurt that you've inflicted on someone you said is a friend.Ask yourself now "did he/she deserve it?" also ask yourself "am I happy with the way I made that friend feel?" If you can answer "yes" to those two questions...You're truly a cold person.In closing I say...Friends stick by each other...even when they are not wanted or told to back off.Friends don't let friends suffer alone.<br /><br />P.S, Something I apply to relationships "If you fall...I'll pick you up...if I can't pick you up...I'll lay down beside you" I apply that to my friendships too.(anyone close to me can vouch for me on this)<br /><br />Peace,<br /><br />SincereSincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-28869040325946228322009-01-15T09:14:00.000+00:002009-01-15T09:15:35.767+00:00Hope: Forever we will be...Why does this keep<br />Happening to me<br />seems like everytime I<br /> fall for someone<br />they feel it's not meant to be<br />for whatever reason<br />they see<br />something inside me<br />that I just don't see<br />I was prepared to go that<br />whole distance<br />and then they would see<br />I could love them<br />and trust them<br />and make them happy<br />If only they<br />Knew the<br />real side of me<br />maybe they'd see<br />maybe they'd see<br />maybe they'd see<br />I could love them<br />I could make them happy<br />I aint pissed off<br />or sad<br />There's no hate in me<br />I accept that the "one" just is not me<br />The "one" just aint me<br />But i'll be happy<br />If friends we'll always be<br />Just you and me<br />But not you and me<br />Best of Friends you and me<br />You and me<br />Hope we will be<br /><br />Someone tell me<br />Why does this<br />always happen to me<br />always happen to me<br /><br />Feels like "love" just<br />hates me<br />"Love" just hates me<br /><br />That's how it seems<br />That's how it seems<br />Hope we will be<br />Forever friends you and me<br />Smile for me please<br />Smile for me please<br />That keeps me going<br />Keeps me going..<br /><br />*Inspired By Hope & rhythmically by Kanye West "street lights"Sincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-16858901172827329232009-01-14T13:12:00.000+00:002009-01-14T13:13:12.856+00:00Hope: Either wayToday I thought about how you brought back my smile<br />I thought about how you were when we first met<br />and how you are now<br />You never changed and i'm kinda like "wow"<br />Sometimes I look at you<br />and wonder what you're thinking<br />Sometimes I even wonder if i'm dreaming<br />Friends for so long<br />and suddenly we crossed in a more private way<br />I wrote this so that you know that<br />If we stay the same as day one<br />or if we take that chance that we're both afraid or confused about...<br />Either way i'll still be the same<br />It will always be ok<br />Either way...<br /><br /><br />Have I ever lied to you?Sincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-39965656669056387992009-01-13T08:43:00.002+00:002009-01-13T08:49:00.526+00:00Sincerest hopeful thought of the day:Welcome to me.Fully.Hey what up world?<br /><br />For one time and one time only...I'll let you in.<br /><br />Welcome to me...<br /><br /><br />It's been a rough and hard year for me...I've been through the fire...I've been through it all.This is not an attempt to vent,or seek comfort.This is just me sharing with you.The full me...Well i'll try my best.I'm still a secretive scorpio.<br /><br />So yeah...I've realized today...<br /><br />That it takes shattering heartache,the loss of ones soul,the sudden collapse of ones plans,and pretty much a huge fall...To sometimes make you realize your purpose...Well who am I to say? Let's just say that's what it took in my case.I can't...nah I won't elaborate any further on it.You gotta let this one ride really.Another thing it takes is...just one person...just one person to be there for you and understand.It can even be yourself but most of the time you don't even understand it so it more than likely will come from an outside source...<br /><br />I've been lucky enough to have that outside source come in the shape of a friend of ten years.She told me something years ago that has stayed with me.And when I saw her again recently...She said it again...only this time with her smile and her eyes and here hug.And for that I am forever grateful.I love and adore her more than she may know...She gave me fresh air when I was suffocating.She gave me a reasone to smile.She gave me time when she didn't have to.She gave me friendship and accepts me for me even in my imperfections.She gave and still gives me Hope.But what makes her amazing is...the fact that she does this and only asks in return that I be Me.<br /><br />Thank you for reading and Goodbye...<br /><br /><br />"In life you will fall many times.And that is ok.As long as you get up from each fall"Sincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-80598855821515254202009-01-13T08:06:00.000+00:002009-01-13T08:07:27.512+00:00Hope:PromiseHow can I not think of her<br />She keeps appearing in my mind and in my dreams<br />I try to tell myself to stop<br />But i'm just not listening<br /><br />I know I feel<br />and I know it's no longer a crush<br />it is real...<br /><br />But some i've got to be strong<br />We've been close for so long<br />Either way that this turns out<br />I promise to carry on<br />The way you've known me for years<br />There's no way I'll let this end in tearsSincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-29612736570995319102009-01-11T12:18:00.000+00:002009-01-11T12:19:14.206+00:00Hope: Last NightThe thoughts in my head<br />came true in my bed<br />when we were kissing last night<br />last night<br /><br />We almost lost control<br />when we lost all of our clothes<br />last night<br />last night<br /><br />Our bodies screamed yes<br />But our minds told us no...<br />as we kissed and grinded last night<br />last night<br /><br />People will say it's wrong<br />because of the fact that we're friends<br />and in their mind this will be something that will make the friendship end...<br />but I believe they are wrong...<br />because last night...<br />it felt so right<br />last night...<br /><br />To be continued...Sincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-44788967112129531762009-01-11T12:08:00.000+00:002009-01-11T12:09:05.855+00:00Sincerest thought of the day:My life is...Ok I decided to write this blog to address a few people.(you know who you are)My life is exactly that...My life.Which means I am under no obligation to grant you with updates regarding anything in my life.My life...key word...MY.So think what you like.Say what you say.Do what you do.Talk fly like you know what's going on then when you realize what you said and try to cover it up with thoughts of fake concern...Realize that I see through you.And that's all I have to say.<br /><br />:)<br /><br />Peace...<br /><br />Hit my music...<br /><br />Laaaa Laaaa La LaSincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-26553479291400113002009-01-08T09:40:00.000+00:002009-01-08T09:43:17.825+00:00Her Lips Part 2: Friends do things...I never imagined we'd end up like this...<br />To come this far from a stolen kiss...<br />Stolen kisses actually are the best...<br />It had my heart racing so much that...<br />I thought it was gonna jump out of my chest...<br />Funny thing is that the build up to that kiss...<br />made me have to step away for a minute...<br />just to compose myself...<br />because I still have the memory of "her lips"<br />...<br />...<br />Back to the stolen kiss...<br />Yeah...<br />I was right to take a moment...<br />because those lips are exactly...<br />the way I remember...<br />Actually they are better...<br />Is that even possible?<br />Maybe it seems that way because...<br />I don't know...<br />But those lips...<br />I don't even know how to explain<br />...<br />...<br />wait...<br />how did we end up here...<br />where?<br />here in my living room...<br />on my couch...<br />honestly I don't care how we got here...<br />I'm just happy we're here...<br />Do I owe it to fate?<br />Hell nah...<br />I owe it to that italian resturaunt not having anything good on the menu...<br />...<br />...<br />I wonder if she knew what I was thinking while drinking that cappuchino...<br />Did she notice that I am trying to not let the shyness take over me?<br />Did she know I want to just come over to her...<br />and tell her how much I miss her and then kiss her?<br />Wait wait...If I do that...<br />What if she doesn't feel the same?<br />What if I end up ruining something that i cherish that took years to build...<br />what if I ruin it with one mistake?<br />Mistake?<br />Nah...<br />Mistake don't feel this way...<br />Then my conscience kicks in and says "behave"<br />So I did...<br />I hate my conscience because sometimes it is wrong...<br />Actually alot of times...<br />How can I behave when her perfume says to me " come over this way"<br />How can I behave when...whenever she speaks I watch her lips and when I think she notices...<br />I look away...<br />Then my conscience kicks in again and says..."look you're friends...the end"<br />...<br />...<br />Nah...<br />Friends?Yes the best of friends actually...<br />...<br />...<br />Now back to the begining or middle...<br />I don't know...<br />Ok back to the couch...<br />I say i'm cold and my hands are shivering...<br />But that's such a lie...<br />I was...<br />nervous...<br />shy...<br />and wanting her so bad...<br />I had to slip away just for a moment...<br />I excuse myself and go to the bathroom...<br />I look at myself in the mirror...<br />as if trying to say what the fuck is wrong with you?<br />Snap out of it!!!<br />I splash some water on my face and snap out of it...<br />I sit down beside her and she says...<br />"What are you thinking?"<br />I... of course say "i'm not thinking anything" and smile<br />She pauses and says "ok"<br />I think shit! she knows somethings up...<br />She says "i know you're thinking something and you're just not saying"<br />She turns away...<br />I think damn...she knows me so well...<br />I say and then ask myself...<br />"you only live once...am I gonna live with regrets or just live?"<br />I put my hand on her chin...<br />moved in closer...<br />closed my eyes and kissed her...<br />I chose to just live...<br />and I don't regret it at all...<br />...<br />...<br />"That is what I was thinking all this time"<br />is what i say to her...<br />"What next she says?"<br />I wanted to faint...<br />I knew the answer was...<br />What's next...what's next is...<br />...<br />...<br />Literally like a song from her favorite artist...Usher...<br />"Can you handle it<br />If I go there baby with you<br />I can handle it<br />I can go there baby with you<br />Oh I hear you talkin' babe<br />Can you handle it<br />Can I go there baby with you<br />We gon' set it off<br />We gon' tear it up<br />Baby can you handle"<br />...<br />I wanted to say that's what's next ma can you handle it?...<br />That's what i wanted to say but I chose not to.<br />...<br />...<br />Then my conscience came in again...This time I won against it.I proved to it that yes we are friends but this is not gonna ruin anything...<br />I kinda owe that to her though...<br />because she convinced me then I had all I needed to convince my annoying conscience to shut up so I can relax...<br />...<br />...<br />Just so you guys know...<br />It is not easy being me...<br />LOL.I am a thinker...<br />And it absolutely sucks...<br />...<br />...<br />But back to the story...<br />A kiss lead to this...<br />which lead to that...<br />Not what you're thinking...<br />We didn't take it there...<br />I think we both wanted to...<br />But...<br />I can't give you all those details...<br />Or can I?<br />I'll just say...Seeing her the way I saw her last night was far better than I have thought...<br />Feeling her the way I felt her is far far better than I could ever imagine...<br />Is this just a story?<br />Maybe...<br />Myabe I love messing with peoples minds so much that I find it funny...<br />Maybe this is just a story...<br />Maybe her body is ten times better than her clothing hides from the imagination...<br />Maybe for the first time I had my hands all over her body and hers all over mine...<br />Maybe you will never know...<br />Maybe this is me just being a writer...<br />You will never know <img src="http://x.myspace.com/images/blog/smileys/excited.gif" />Sincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-74913868484191194012009-01-03T22:53:00.000+00:002009-01-03T22:54:14.400+00:00What do you do?What do you do when you fall...when you fall so deep...so deep that you have you to look UP to see hell...what do you do?<br /><br />Insert thoughts here___________________________________________________________________.<br /><br />Sincerely yours,<br /><br />Sincere ProdigySincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-22895012915232497152008-12-30T21:32:00.003+00:002008-12-30T21:41:35.711+00:00Sincerest thought of the day:We've been friends since I was 18...Well my day couldn't have gone any better.Today I saw someone that i've been friends with since I was 18.The sweetest,kindest,and most caring person i've ever come across.Seeing her made me realize that there are still good people out there.It's been almost 10 years that we've know each other...and she has always been the sweetest person.I've never even seen her angry.Like ever.I cherish our friendship and I absolutely adore you.You're the best.<br /><br /><br />Sincere...Sincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-79544219016871012362008-12-29T14:46:00.000+00:002008-12-29T14:47:02.101+00:00Sincerest thought of the day: Be grateful with what you have...There's really not much to it.You gotta be grateful with what you DO have and don't place everything on what you DON'T have.You'll go fuckin nuts if you do.Plans change,goals take longer to get to.Doesn't mean that all is lost.It just means it's time to look over it and approach it differently.Be grateful people.<br /><br />PeaceSincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-47805990996650419962008-12-29T09:55:00.001+00:002008-12-29T20:44:29.004+00:00Sincerest thought of the day: N.O.R.COk so as of late i've been slacking on my blogs and what not.Basically put me down for a two count.But i'm back up so it's nothing.Anyway...I was thinking about alot over the last few days.And one thing in particular is N.O.R.C (no one really cares).I thought about this mid-conversation at a hotel cafe the other day.A friend from the past whom I lost touch with is in town for an extended vacation blah blah blah.So yeah she asks me "what's wrong?"I say "nothing"of course.But eventually I told her what was wrong and maybe halfway through my explanation of the angsts of life...the conversation was somehow changed back on to her.Now it may sound selfish of me but...can't I be the main focus for once?I mean my friends always tell me that i'm easy to talk to because I listen very well.Not to toot my own horn but...it's absolutely true.I will listen for hours on end.Like really.But it seems that people forget that.We all have problems and need to vent them out.We can't always be the listener.We need to be listened to also.Well anyway it kinda upset me.And then so many other instances occured to me.Which made me think that no one really cares these days.Unless it directly affects them.We live in a "me me me" type of world.And honestly it's sad.Now this doesn't apply to everyone of course.But if the shoe fits...wear it.<br /><br />That's all.I got it out of my system.Thank you for your time.<br /><br />Listen...Sincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-995699062084026662008-12-25T18:50:00.005+00:002008-12-25T19:52:48.398+00:00Hollowfication: The heartless and thoughtless Leader.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiXYulLGzjn93RDmPJd0ZGBWHevlWZHTOejgwmQxt5FC6EBlsD62hdTXVhyphenhyphen9BqHQjiKlEL4UcHHkXftbHVxSUIP1m7Rw2QM0Auga6qzySjw0uB6qdCLIwp0CRMgzsAtN_fTImlSIIH7g_g/s1600-h/hirukohollow.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 291px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiXYulLGzjn93RDmPJd0ZGBWHevlWZHTOejgwmQxt5FC6EBlsD62hdTXVhyphenhyphen9BqHQjiKlEL4UcHHkXftbHVxSUIP1m7Rw2QM0Auga6qzySjw0uB6qdCLIwp0CRMgzsAtN_fTImlSIIH7g_g/s320/hirukohollow.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5283816740529068786" border="0" /></a><br />I've always...even as a child...<br /><br />If I didn't like something...<br /><br />Or if something bothered me...<br /><br />I'd cut or take it out of my life...somehow<br /><br />Like while playing with toys...if I didn't like an action figures arm...I'd cut it or pull it off and replace it.Or i'd just leave him without an arm and put in some sort of storyline that he lost that arm on some sort of adventure...*smile*my brothers can vouche for me.LOL.<br /><br />I bet you're wondering why i'm mentioning the above...<br /><br />It is because i find it that I am still that way today at the age of 27...Only in a more extreme way.If something in my life bothers me...I cut it out...<br /><br />My heart and my thoughts are a burden on me at the moment...So I cut them out...I will have no part of me acting out against me without such punishment.It may sound strange but that's ok.I only expect you to understand...if you've been in my shoes...<br /><br />So with that being said...I am now ready for the battle that becons me to come forward.As if to mock me. "You shall not succeed"<br /><br />...<br /><br />Oh?<br /><br />Is that so?<br /><br />Heartless...<br /><br />Mindless...<br /><br />Yet still able to love and think with a clear conscious?<br /><br />...<br /><br />You know not what you're up against...<br /><br />*laugh*<br /><br />Pardon me...<br /><br />Allow me to let you in on a little secret about me...<br /><br />There are some that read between the lines...<br /><br />Then you have me...<br /><br />Who reads between the lines between the lines...<br /><br />You question me...You judge me...You ridicule me...You pity me...<br /><br />Yet you don't know me...<br /><br />Are you that arrogant and selfish...that...you deny me the same fairness that you wish for yourself?<br /><br />Are you afraid?<br /><br />...<br /><br />You should be...<br /><br />Now back to the story...<br /><br />Allow me to let you in on a little secret...<br /><br />The battle was won before you even stated you position...<br /><br />My secret weapon...<br /><br />Heartless mindless...control...<br /><br />"You'll only know what I allow you to know or that which I wish for you to convince yourself to believe"<br /><br />Scared now?<br /><br />You definately should be...<br /><br />The battle has yet to begin...<br /><br />And yet you still have lost...<br /><br />Scared yet...<br /><br />Scared...<br /><br />Yet?<br /><br />You should be terrified.<br /><br />My anger obeys me...<br /><br />It remains in silence...<br /><br />It hides behind these eyes...<br /><br />Behind this smile...<br /><br />It is so stealthy that it even hides behind the very beat of your so called heart...<br /><br />Don't be ashamed...<br /><br />You were merely a canvas...<br /><br />A material needed to paint my beautiful story of your self inflicted demise...<br /><br />My secret weapon...<br /><br />Has a secret weapon...<br /><br />When I cut out my heart and my thoughts...<br /><br />They in turn...<br /><br />Cut out your hope...<br /><br />Are you afraid...<br /><br />You...<br /><br />Should...<br /><br />Be...<br /><br />This is not a warning...<br /><br />This is just an introduction to where you end...<br /><br />And I begin...Sincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-9310510586666876302008-12-07T17:03:00.001+00:002008-12-07T17:03:46.908+00:00Fade to Black/Dawn of a New Me: Fatal LoveSometimes I wanna dieeeee<br />Sometimes I wanna cryyyyy<br />Sometimes I wonder whyyy<br />Why<br />Why you came into my lifffe<br />Just to make me die insiiiiide<br />Tell me<br />What the fuck do you get<br />From being such a bitcccch<br />I had enough of this shitttt<br />I had enough of this shitttt<br />I had enough of this shitttt<br />So<br />So i'm gettin the fuck outta herrrre<br />This time I mean itttt<br />My<br />My fuckin name is Sincerrrrre<br />My<br />My fuckin name is Sincerrrrre<br />My<br />My fuckin name is Sincerrrrre<br />You see I mean it so you bring out those fake tears<br />You've been doin that shit for yearrrrrs<br />But this time i'm thinking clearrrr<br />Don't flash those breasts over herrrre<br />Girl<br />Don't flash those breasts over herrrre<br />Girl<br />Don't flash those breasts over herrrre<br />Girl<br />You're no longer part of my world<br />Girl...<br />What do you mean that I can't leave?<br />I'm no longer your hostage emotionally<br />I found the strength that I neeeed<br />I found the strength that I neeeed<br />I found the strength that I neeeed<br />The strength I need to fuckin leavvvve<br />So step aside and let me leave<br />Go on with your life an let me beee<br />Please step aside so I can leavvvve<br />Can't you see what you've done to meee?<br />Can I give you one more chance?the answers nooooo<br />Can I give you one more chance?the answers nooooo<br />Wait...<br />Wait...<br />Wait...<br />Where the hell did you get that gun and what is it for?<br />Let's stay calm and talk<br />Baby let's stay calm and talk<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />Where did you get that gun...<br />What is it for...<br />Will I give you another chance?<br />Still...<br />The answers nooooo<br /><br />...<br />...<br />...Sincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-81398641431924867922008-12-05T20:45:00.000+00:002008-12-05T20:46:03.857+00:00Sincerest Thought of the day: VanityWhat up people?So yeah today I woke up feeling great.A little queezy but great.And I looked beautiful.Like pretty.You ever get sick and then when you get better you're just glowing?So i wash my face then look in the mirror then actually did a double take.I was like wow...Damn...Shit...Shit I look amazing.LMAO.Come on now you know you get like that sometimes.Well most of you...some of you are like pig ugly dog trolls.Sike nah i'm just joking.But yeah I looked fly.Yesssssir.LOL<br /><br />Now on to the thought of the day...<br /><br />"Fuck what everyone feels about you.It doesn't matter.Love yourself.If you don't...who will?"<br /><br />Peace,<br /><br />SincereSincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-87500479064755698252008-12-04T10:37:00.002+00:002008-12-04T10:42:30.548+00:00Sincerest Thought of the day: *sigh*Day 2.LOL. So yeah i'm still sick as fuck.But I just bought myself some organic honey,more ginger and lemon.I'm sooo about to fuck this cold up.The vomiting has stopped so i'm thankful for that.Yayy to no vomiting.So yeah i'm gonna stick to the daily blogging as I said in the other one even if its just one thought or line or two. So here goes...<br /><br />"When you can't do what you want where you want to...Do what you can where you are"<br /><br />Smile for me.<br /><br />Peace,<br /><br />SincereSincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6742534181668992325.post-1621181087003518312008-12-03T11:07:00.002+00:002008-12-03T11:14:02.077+00:00Sincerest Thought of the day:RelationshipsGood morning everyone,<br /><br />I woke up this morning sick as fuck.Nausea,Chills,runny/stuffy nose the whole nine.wtf? Alas...I decided to go into work anyway.That lasted a good hour.Now i'm back home.Vomiting doesn't go well with customers.Not even a little bit...<br /><br />But yeah I decided to make my blogging more frequent.Even if it's just something like a single thought.So today since everyone seems to be going through relationship problems I decided to share my thoughts...<br /><br /> "I may not be everything you want.But that doesn't mean that I'm not everything you need"<br /><br />That's seriously my thought on the whole dating game and relationship thing at the moment.We have to learn to stop being greedy.<br /><br />And on that note homemade Ginger,Lemon,and Echinacea tea...You are my lover today.Come to me...<br /><br />Peace,<br /><br />SincereSincerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10706488006008418317noreply@blogger.com0